I'm really tired already..

About Love, Family and now.. even the most important thing.. Friends..

Love
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Never seem to be something within my reach, not for long anyway..
MANY times.. i tot i could be happy.. yet.. haiz.

Family
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I have i home that i can't return to..
Reason? a Spastic older brother who always picks on me.
And he behaves like a gangster and, as if the whole owns him money..
My mum is siding him most of the time as she always trust my brother more than me.
Yet, now when she realised that i was the one suffering all these years.
She cannot do anything about it.

I moved out becos i dun wan to face both of them.
The whole family is so plastic. Even more plastic when i bring friends over to wait for me while i pack my stuff and leave together.

HATE THEM..


Friends
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Jus when i though i could turn to this bunch of friends for comfort..
They have MORE problems among them..
I shall not go into details about wad had happen..
But i'll say about NOW..

2 people.. If 2 of u are reading.. this is HOW u Made me feel..

Person 1
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Wadever u think u have gone thru, i had gone thru it.
so dun gimmi ur shit as if i wun understand.
u transfer your attention to games..
thats fairly acceptable.. but u are overly paying attention to your games..
u can even ignore friends or ur own personal safety.

U can rush home jus to play a game, without even going on ur MSN..
u can bare with the LAg jus to play ur game, but cannot try to log in to msn..

I DUN UNDERSTAND...

When u have games.. u totally forget everything. all ur friends can wait.
ur games can't. i will not comment further, as i beleive i've said enough.

Person 2
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U are the person i care for most.
but, u cherish your other group of friends more,
I understand its your choice, and its becos u enjoyed being with them more.
But, izzit fair to ME? then again.. i may be nothing to u from the very start.
just a speck of dust that u can brush it off, knowing that after a while, i'll
come back to u? Used to be.. but NOT any more... Mark my words..

END.