Gosh... i Can't Slp.. I'm sooo screwed tml..

Too many things on my mind..
I'm thinking of U, you & Eu.

3 people.. gosh..

Haiz.. can i just forget and start anew?
Please.. its torturing me... >.<

Moi Bloggie....

Haiz.. now is 1.56am in the morning... i'm at dhas's hse..
using his lappy to do my blogging..

i can't slp.. not yet anyway.. not with 1 person crying behind me under the blanket..
it felt so like me.. wad i used to do.. and i've no idea how i dealt with it.
or maybe.. i didn't.. i just grew numb over time. yea.. i guess so too..
life has always been a bitch towards me... nvr i've felt something nice that is long enough for me to remember it.. surely.. there will be something pretty bad bashing thru to spoil the whole happy scene.. yep. many a times i really wanna cry.. like now.. but i just can't.. i gotta be strong.. as i've always been.. but i really dunno how long i can last.. the batteries are running low.. i dun think i can sustain much longer.. i always that i can really take things easily.. smile it off..
but.. actually.. i'm just running away from things.. push it aside.. but... recently.. someone asked me a question... and i dunno how to answer it.. i end up crying.. haa... i felt useles.. really..

SomeOne : "How do you forget someone?"

my answer to it ?
: "I never ask myself before.. perhaps.. i never forgotten anyone ba.."

Well, i'm not gonna cry.. cos once i start.. it takes forever to stop..
I wun cry infront of these guys anyway..

AND

tml we are going swimmming at Chinese Garden early in the morning..
i wouldn't wanna appear with red eyes rite?..

Gotta stay strong.. i shall try to stop my tears from flowing..
Off the lights.. so they wun see me clearly..

Those who view this blog.. shh.. thanks...