Moi Bloggie....

Haiz.. now is 1.56am in the morning... i'm at dhas's hse..
using his lappy to do my blogging..

i can't slp.. not yet anyway.. not with 1 person crying behind me under the blanket..
it felt so like me.. wad i used to do.. and i've no idea how i dealt with it.
or maybe.. i didn't.. i just grew numb over time. yea.. i guess so too..
life has always been a bitch towards me... nvr i've felt something nice that is long enough for me to remember it.. surely.. there will be something pretty bad bashing thru to spoil the whole happy scene.. yep. many a times i really wanna cry.. like now.. but i just can't.. i gotta be strong.. as i've always been.. but i really dunno how long i can last.. the batteries are running low.. i dun think i can sustain much longer.. i always that i can really take things easily.. smile it off..
but.. actually.. i'm just running away from things.. push it aside.. but... recently.. someone asked me a question... and i dunno how to answer it.. i end up crying.. haa... i felt useles.. really..

SomeOne : "How do you forget someone?"

my answer to it ?
: "I never ask myself before.. perhaps.. i never forgotten anyone ba.."

Well, i'm not gonna cry.. cos once i start.. it takes forever to stop..
I wun cry infront of these guys anyway..

AND

tml we are going swimmming at Chinese Garden early in the morning..
i wouldn't wanna appear with red eyes rite?..

Gotta stay strong.. i shall try to stop my tears from flowing..
Off the lights.. so they wun see me clearly..

Those who view this blog.. shh.. thanks...

Current Mood
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My Heart Phase-shifted into Oblivion..

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Yesterday, for a moment.. i felt sooo.. hard to describe.

If i really try hard.. hmm..

My heart got exile outta from my Body...

Everytime i lie down, i hear the same words over and over again.
then, tears will start to flow..
for 20mins. i stood up.. cook some stuff.. lie down.. cried.. stood up.. walk ard..
lie down, cried.. this sequence repeats for the whole 20mins..

dunno wad to say..

>.<

The Current Mood
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Enjoy... >.<

2008, September 27th...

Oh... What a night.. =X

no ..Dot Dot Dot.. though.. Love ya ~~

I should shut my mouth from now on..

I really should.. and start doing things that makes myself happy..
wadever it is..

I GIVE UP...

do wad you want.. as long as it doesn't affect me.. i wun gif a F*** about it.

Oh ya.. juz something that i rememebered over a chat with a friend yesterday.

IF U WANNA LIE TO ME.. U BETTER BE A F***ING GOOD LIAR..
IF NOT.. U JOLLY WELL COME CLEAN WITH TRUTH.. THX....

Starting from tomorrow.. i shall clear all thoughts..

Let me just EMO 1 last night.. and after i wake up..
I'm a brand new person..new thinking.. no need to pretend, no need to plastic..
No need to act bitchy and all to entertain people..
Just wanna be happy... Jus be around those people who truely appreciates me..
Be who i really am.. then if i still have these friends.. those are truely wad we call friends...

As for YOU.. i shall forget you once and for all.. you know who you are...

This is a promise.. a promise i made like dunno upteen times..
But.. now.. i put it here.. to remind me to DO IT..
Many a times i gave up trying.. Now its time for me to MOVE ON..
Since from wad i see, you are not the least affected by it..
You moved on pretty fast and well.. ( as expected from you anyway )

We are still friends of cos.. 4Ever FreNz..

I hope i will still be around as much as i can for you guys..
But, Everyone gotta leave at some point.. =D

Give and Take bahz ..

Cheers dudes.. seeya around!!

Good Morning~~

Wah.. now slacking at office.. so Bored.. no phone calls.. Lazy to play games..
Can't sleep yesterday..
Thinking about stuff.. So Much had happen.. *faint..

Lets see... What are the things that have happen lately..
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Lets go by alphabet.. =D
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Baldovin : wOah~ Dota improve le.. not as *Gan Jiong Spider* as last time. Good Job~~ Getting more and more mature le bahx.. thats good.. but.. mature in terms of behavior.. not looks pls.. =D .. take care~~

Dhaslie : DhasLing~~ haha.. nothing much bahx.. still the same old DraTiNi.. but.. you gonna start working le.. >.< BORING!! haha... take care too =D

Fish : No Comments.. Getting more and more Ruthless in terms of DOTA.. HATE U!!! .. Take care too..

Henry : WooOT.. alot happen to this buddy here.. lol.. The... Emooo.... hahahahaa.. Nevermind.. shall give u this honour to blog this urself.. ahhaha.. take extra care ~~

Ivan : Nothing much bahx.. the usual Dota freak.. nice person.. learnt alot of Dota things from him.. hope he dun get too irritated by me.. sorry la~~ noob here >.<

Steve : Stevalicious ~~ haha.. go camp la!! Slush!! dun wan blog about u !! hahaa.. =P

Yawns.. i go find some things to do.. =D
Cya!!

Woahh... Long time no blog le..

Wanted to blog the past few weeks..
but the lazy bug got me.. =D

Many times have happen recently..
Too much until i dunno when to start.. guess i'll start blogging le..
if not ah.. things get more and more.. hard to say le.. then lazy blog le.. hohoho !!
=D

Quote: "I can't be your BoyFriend.... But that doesn't mean i don't Love You".

If I told you that this song was meant for you,

Would you believe me?

It might not sound as beautiful as other songs,

You may not know that love songs couldn't be written out,

If we didn't have the feeling of "Love".

But for you, sweetheart, it all came, easily.

You might have heard thousands of ballads,

Some may touch your heart,

though they meant nothing ever more...

But you'll know when you listen to this song, it was meant just for you.

You would know by heart what I meant,

And we would be there for each other.

Let the song play while we're walking on that path.

All I hear is just the voice of you and me.

We'll be together for so long.

As mentioned in the poetry.

That, where there is love, there is always hope.

Your love has lightened up my heart.

You are my destiny.

Love holds up many truths to look for.

And I have wasted my life time searching for them.

But not so long ago, I realized when i get close to you.

If my life is a rhythm,

you're the beautiful lyrics to this song that has touched my heart.
Let the song play while we're walking on that path.

All I hear is just the voice of you and me.

We'll be together for so long.
As mentioned in the poetry.

That, where there is love, there is always hope.

Your love has lightened up my heart.

You are my destiny.

We walk along the way, all I've heard is the voice of you and me.

We walk along the way together, all I've heard is the voice of you and me.

I happen to surf the webby then saw this very nice post..
===>

"When I was born, I was black, "
"When I grew up, I was black, "
"When I'm sick, I'm black, "
"When I go in the sun, I'm black, "
"When I'm cold, I'm black, "
"When I die, I'll be black."

"But you, sir..."

"When you're born, you're pink, "
"When you grow up, you're white, "
"When you're sick, you're green, "
"When you go in the sun, you turn red, "
"When you're cold, you turn blue, "
"And when you die, you'll turn purple."
"And you have the nerve to call me colored?"

---- LOL ---

Haiz... suddenly mood went very very low..

Got alot flashback.. dunno why.. am i dying ?
how i wish i can reincarnate and start all over..

i miss those times.... haiz...

huh ?? when ??

Err...

When i received this....

This Handphone accessory was given by my ex.. someone till now still very dearest to me.. see the ring ? its one of the most important thing to him.. but i lost it.. together with the chain.. Haiz... i still feel very very sad.. and lost when i think about my Ex... the amount of sadness i have is ... wa... is so zzz that i can't find words to describe... i guess its fated to be liddat so that i can deeply rememeber this lesson bah...

Signing Out... :'(

DAMN IRRITATED!!!

Sian sia.. I LOST MY PHONE... yea.. for those who know me.. you guys must be thinking..
"yea... wads new..."

I was running an errand for my company.. then happily got down the bus...
Upon reaching Suntec Tower 3's Lift.. i realise... my Handphone.. STILL ON THE BUS !.

sian lo.. wanted to find a phone to call and terminate the line..
Run to Plaza Singapura's Starhub Center... Terminate the line..
As for the Sim Card Collection.. got to wait till Friday.. for my mum.. haiz..

Damn sad and angry.. went to PS arcade.. and trash 2 person on MIRA.. felt much better..
But the mood immediately turned bad... when i was owned by 1 of the Regular of MIRA...

Didn't felt good though.. so went home and rested abit..
Bloggin now.. haha... k la. i shouldn't skip the middle part..
I WENT TO BUGIS TO PLAY KOF !!!
this time with shude as my coach..

WoW... i realise that with focus.. i can play my mignon well.. hoho..
*CLAP CLAP* ...

COME AND CHALLENGE ME LO!!

haha.. omg.. such arrogance.. k la.. i go slp le. nite nite... =D

LaUgH OuT LouD ... This Song By Fish Leong ...

思路

Suit This Fugitive Right !!!

Name : Mas Selamat bin Kastari
D.O.B : 23 January 1961
Nationality : Indonesian-born Singaporean
Escape from Prison in Indonesia : 3 Times

He is the Head of the Singapore's branch of militant group; Jemaah Islamiah (JI).
Singapore authorities discovered that he planned to crash seven bomb-filled trucks at various locations around city-state, and he had been on the run ever since.

In January 2006, Mas Selamat was arrested by Indonesian anti-terror squads in Java and deported to Singapore.
He was suspected of plotting to bomb Singapore Changi Airport in 2002, and further investigations confirmed that he had initially planned to do so by crashing a plane through the airport.

Let us dwell into his childhood....
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He was born on 23 January 1961 in Kendal, Central Java.
He grew up in Kaki Bukit leading a typical kampong life.
Attended Kaki Bukit Primary School, and known as "Selamat" by neighbours and friends.
In the early 1980s, "Selamat" moved to a flat in Bedok Reservoir and married with 5 children.

Hmmmm.....Involvement with JI...
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He was believed to begin his involvement in the 1990 when he joined Darul Islam, a precusor movement to the Jemaah Islamiah (JI) group.
By 1992, he had joined the Singapore JI cell and was sent to Afghanistan for training a year later. In 1998, he studied the Taleban system of government returned home 'deeply impressed'.

wHOooO... Kenna Arrest....
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Mas Selamat had changed his identity, assuming the name of Edy Heriyanto and obtained an Indonesian passport.
He held possession of literature on making bombs and the virtue on suicide.
He was jailed for 18 months in 2003 for immigration offences.
He was however not handed over to Singapore upon his release, since Indonesia and Singapore do not yet have an extradition treaty.
During this period of imprisonment, he broke his left leg in a botched attempt to escape when he jumped from a high floor, resulting him walking in a permanent limp

His Escape in Singapore...
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February 27, 20084.05pm Wednesday
Escaped from ISD's Whitley Road Detention Centre.
He was having his family visit in the meeting room.
Soon, he request to use the toilet, thats when he fled.

The Chase...
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Party consist of :
Singapore Police Force
Gurkha Contingent
Police Tactical Unit
PNSKIPU (Police NS Key Installation Protection Unit)
Singapore Guards

For 17 Hours, the search went but without success in locating the believed, unarmed fugitive.

He is still on the run... Beware~~

=D....

2 shots of hate from a mouth as loud as a gun...

Like an assasin ... Who does it for fun..
2 deafening blows in a war that has just begun...

Life goes away... and i'm done...
2 Blue roses sitting on my coffin...

The wind blows, Leaving only one...

The world i know disappears...like the setting sun....

Arlow Arlow~~
Jan 08~~ A new year.. A new Start.. NEW BLOG MUSIC!
New Love.. New Looks.. Whaha.. Everything New La..
Oh ya !! new Job Too..

Speaking abt this new job.. wa lau.. as expected from SG..
*I DUNNO* is a very frequently used words..
Customer can use I DUNNO and demand us to WAIVE all payment..
SIAO !! crazy.. i so free ah~~.. anyway.. now then i know.. WAIVING charges
alot things to do.. no wonder all the company dun like waiving charges..
must contact the TELCO and negotiate with them.. lol..
*AUNTIE HERE LAYMAN.. DUN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH.. AUNTIE CANNOT READ
ENGLISH ALSO... SEE THE WORD FREE.. AUNTIE SIGN UP ALREADY.. NEVER READ
THE TERMS AND CONDITIONS ALSO *

my reply.. : *AUNTIE.. ITS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT U DUN UNDERSTAND
ENGLISH.. FOR THE FACT THAT U JUZ PRONOUNCED YOUR ENGLISH & THE
WORDS; TERMS AND CONDITION SO FLUENTLY.. AND U HAVE SAID.. U READ THE
WORD FREE.. SO WHICH IS WHICH.. U DUN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH OR U
GOT AMNESIA AFTER READING THE WORD FREE ?
I'm SORRY AUNTIE.. NO WAIVER WILL BE PROCESSED.. CHARGES MAINTAINED
CASE CLOSE
* and i hung up the PHone ...

HAHAHA..
THE BITCH AT WORK !! =P

wa.. sooo long nvr blog le.. anyway..
nothing to blog so nvr blog lo..
alot of good things happen.. met and got to know new friends..
those whom i already know.. i got to know them better =D
aiyo,.. lazy blog lehx.. i hug deficient.. i go hug my boaster... =(
pls.. gimmi hug and kisses... u know who u are.. =D

*taDah~~*
i'm back.. =P ... Do Eu~~ Miss Me Like I Miss Eu~~ haha... *vomit vomit*
lOl.. my actual written post was 30 Sept.. that stupid kizoku de Hse warming..

well.. been doing well this few days.. lots of good things happen..
haha.. wanna know ?? dun tell eu~~ =P..
no la.. but things are fine lor.. lol.. and to those who think i cannot surive
without clubbing~ whahaa.. U are WroNg~~~ been very long since i last club..
bzbz lor.. got many things to do in camp.. now doing Ops at Jurong island..
2 days work 2 days off.. shiok hor.. UR HEAD AH... burnt alot of my weekends liaoz..
hmm.. started my training plan a week liaoz.. jogging.. swimming.. all at night..
lol.. i dun like the sun.. moon suites me more.. night ma.. can jog.. can sing.. nobody care..
occasionally can catch chee ko peh cruise cruise de wor.. lol..
then can disturb them also.. sashay abit.. let them interested.. then jog until disappear.. lol..

anyway.. yep.. hope i have alot of fun things happening.. so that i can keep updating..
if not very sian wan lehx.. fun things as in those i can write de la..
some private things.. =x.. cannot say de.. *slurp.. wanna know ?
call me lor.. i MIGHT consider telling u .. wahaaha.

lots of things i wanna try be4 then end of this year.. going to ORD soon le..
time to rely on myself once again.. get a good partner and..
HOPE TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER BAH..
meanwhile.. enjoy myself lo.. dun care wad pple say bahx.. =D
*gtg pract singing le.. need lots of hard work.. cos no talent.. haha... bb~~

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight
This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real
This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
....The start of something new.....

WoOoOoOo..

so long nvr write blog le.. now write lo..

hmmm.... here i go~~

(psst.. anyway.. me now at Kizoku de house gathering lo )


Haa.. so bored here..
He invited us ( Jeremy, Salli, WeiWei, Jojo, Jason, Raine & Ray )
over for house warming lo.. ( psst.. buy hse so long liao.. now then warm.. )
haha... no la.. becos that time after their preparation.. its 7th month le ma..
so.. not very auspicious to hold party.. haha.. thats why now then open..
alot people lo.. ( psst.. all we dunno de.. his family members lor.. )
i came the last.. salli and gang all reach le lor..
we sang KTV, eat & laugh our heads off for most of the night..
then they played MJ when raine and ray came over..
( Psst.. u gonna ask why i nvr play right ? )
i am trying to stop myself from being a compulsive gambler lo..
haha.. must be a good boy.. if not.. how to attract good partner ?
=X anyway.. yea.. its for my own good lor..

the few months.. alot things happen.. but.. i summerize these few months as
very very sad month.. alot things happen.. and.. sadly.. AGAIN..
its ard my birthday months...
start to wonder.. do i get *pms* during these times ???
why all things go wrong de. *humpf.

hmm.. oh.. quite happy though.. this month recieve alot of
pvt msgs from trevvy.. usually dun hav de.. all seeking sex only.
well.. seems nice people... so i did reply afew.. ( psst.. usually i dun reply at all !! )

argh.. other than that.. NOTHING happy happened lor..
haiz..
suddenly think about things that happen.. i no mood write le.. humpf..
write some other time bahx. see ya.. =)